Title:	Super WOW!
Date:	2007-10-10 @ 10:24
Security:	public
Mood:	YAY! A Baby!

Ok so lat week I went to the hospital to do a check up on me.
And it Turns out the reason why all my fasting fails and why I eat without purging is I'm Pregnant!!
I was 20 weeks along when I found out. 
Such a shocker for me.
But yeah now I'm eating healthy and trying to be healthy for my baby.
But once it's out I will be back on my way of being skinny.

Title:	Fuck fuck fuckitty fuck fuck!!!
Date:	2007-09-11 @ 10:59
Security:	public
Mood:	infuriated

Ok well the past two weeks I've been eating and not purging!
I think it has to do with me seeing Jake again.
I mean we aren't together I'm just sleeping with him.
And you would think that I would not want to eat!
But no!
I'm over here gaining all the weight I lost!
God I hate myself right now.
Fuck!!!!
Ok fast beings today!
No more food.
Period.
and will end when I am skinny!
or maybe in 3 weeks.

Love you guys hope everything is better for then it is for me.

Title:	Only tomorrow left...
Date:	2007-08-23 @ 18:40
Security:	public
Location:	computer lab
Mood:	awake

Yep.
Only got one more day.
well not even a whole day before I'm back with my mom.
On thing I need to buy is a scale.
Oh and something for classes.
BUt yeah it's cool.
Today nothing accept what my other friend gave me.
So I guesstimate like 500 cals all together for the day.
WOOT! 
I slept through dinner.


Love peace and perfection!

Title:	the count down....
Date:	2007-08-22 @ 15:22
Security:	public
Location:	Computer lab
Mood:	busy

Ok so today is Wed. 
So only Thurs and Fri left to not eat until
I am forced to, by my mom.
Whatever, Today I eat lunch becuase my roomate says I need to get out.
I laughed at her in my head, if only she knew that food is evil.
Maybe if she did her life would be better.
BUt I'm not going to try to tell her that.
If she wants to be thin she will have to control herself.
So All I had was a salad today.
So Good so far.
Much Love and Strive for perfection!

Title:	So far...
Date:	2007-08-21 @ 10:40
Security:	public
Location:	computer lab
Mood:	cold

Today has been uneventful.
I had intermediate algebra.
Not fun, well not at 9 in the morning.
I love the fact I can not go to breakfast.
And I get to miss lunch today just cuz of my schedule.
Man it's so easy here.
But this weekend is going to be hell.
I have to go home.
Downer to my heaven I guess.
but you keep on going and stay strong.

Title:	Opps..I'm a bitch. lol
Topics:	blah, college, life, no food, sorry
Date:	2007-08-20 @ 14:15
Security:	public
Location:	computer lab
Music:	none
Mood:	YAY no food.

Sorry I haven't been able to post in a while.
Well I'm in college now and away from my mom.
YAY! 
No more people staring at me.
But yeah the fast went well, although I have like new thinsperation.
My Roommate is extremely fat.
Every time I look at her I feel highly greatful I'm not her.

Keep on going!
Eventually they will be fatter then you.

Title:	whoops.
Date:	2007-08-08 @ 11:38
Security:	public
Music:	Sum 41--Umm I don't know. lol
Mood:	annoyed

Ok I didn't wake up till like now.
My alarm didn't out off.
Damn thing.
But yeah still no food but lots of water.
And I took my diet pills for today.
But on to good news.
I found my lost make up bag!
lol I know, but hey I thought it was seriously gone forever.
Off to go get myself ready.
Much love

Title:	Woot Woot! Day one...
Date:	2007-08-07 @ 23:36
Security:	public
Mood:	Woot Woot

YAY!
Day one complete!
No food.
And the whole 'I just got my period' worked.
Haha.
woot.
Ok off to go to bed and wake up early to work out.
Night loves!
<3

Title:	Fast!!!
Date:	2007-08-07 @ 10:51
Security:	public
Mood:	Fast!!

Yes I am going on a 30 day fast.
And yes i will stick to it.
Because I am joining someone.
So I have to.
And no one can stop me.

Title:	Failure..yeah I'm talking about me.
Date:	2007-08-07 @ 08:06
Security:	public
Location:	my livingroom
Mood:	annoyed

Yeah the liquid diet failed.
My mom made me eat.
I had fucking chicken nuggets.
And I didn't purge cuz she was hovering around the bathroom.
Yeah so I'm going to try to start today.
And tell her I started and that I feel really sick today.
That always works.
So I took a pic today with my friend and my face looks thinner.
YAY!
And I am currently loving my collar bones.
They stick wat out without me trying.
If only my hips did that.
So my current goal is to have my sternum show as good as my collar bone.